but for helping me with my diet.

I think it’ll just remind me each day not to binge.

I’ve been failing miserably with my diet.
I’ve been eating pizza, chocolate, and other horrible crap.

I eat when i’m not hungry… I just constantly eat.

If anyone asks, and knows the project, i’ll say it is for support for cutters i know. If anyone asks, and doesn’t know about the project, i’ll say i was bored.

gonna go draw one now.

It’ll be quite crappy.

xoxo

Now i want my grandparents to go to the amish town and get me those marshmallows.

plus there is a whole lot of other candy shit there too.

plus they get oatmeal for my dad there :P

GOD DAMNIT.

lol whatever. GOTTA THINK ABOUT SOMETHING ELSE.

yeah i’ve been bingeing. like a lot.

so right now my plan shall be simply to not go to food.

do not go near the kitchen, unless for liquids. I can have soup but that is it.

bring like a water bottle and something small for lunch.

At home, don’t go to the kitchen.

ugh. prob will fail but lets see~

stolen from chasingsizezero.
Age: 15
Height: 5’2.5

Weight: 141.5 (that probably increased)
Dress Size: not sure.
Goal Weight: 100-95 lbs, preferably in the 90s.
Favorite Diet Food: diet coke, apples, tuna fish, veggie burgers.
Favorite Binge Food: ramen noodles, sweets, anything chocolate
Favorite Exercise: riding my bike. I like walking and doing the elliptical sometimes.

Where Do You Slip Up: Home. Definitely at home, we have so much crap food.

When Did It Start? 
Hating your body: I think at around age 11 or 12, but i never did anything.
Restricting/counting: June 2009 i think.

Does Anyone Know: my family knows i’m dieting, they don’t know i’m restricting.
Do You Want Help: kind of.
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day: just starting to get back into restricting again, but when i did it, it was never the same each day. so yeah…

What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror: i see a disgusting, overweight girl. I see a fat tummy, huge thighs, a pudgy face, pudgy EVERYTHING.

Are You In A Relationship: never been in a relationship, ever.
Are You Depressed: i’m definitely sad sometimes… but idk about depressed.
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide: nope, not at all.
Ever Been To A Psychologist: no.

I AM - 
[] anorexic 
[] ednos 
[] bulimic 
[] living off diet pills 
[] hungry 
[x] thirsty 
[] drinking something 
[] Under 100lbs 
[] starving yourself 
[] participating in a fast 


PEOPLE - 
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic 
[x] call me fat 
[] say I’m skinny 
[x] say I’m ugly 
[] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me 
[not really, on occasion] force me to eat 
[x] say I eat too much 
[] wish I’d eat more 
[] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic/ednos 

I WISH - 
[x] I was THIN 
[x] I had a better body 
[] I didn’t have to eat 
[x] I could control myself 
[x] I was under 110lbs 
[x] I could avoid food 
[] I could hide what I am 
[x] I wasn’t fat 
[x] I was pretty 
[] I could stop being ana/mia then maybe I would be a little more normal 


I LOVE - 
[x] feeling hungry 
[x] seeing a difference when fasting 
[x] shaking 
[x] being weak 
[x] losing weight 
[] being anorexic/bulimic 
[] green tea 
[] diet pills 
[x] being able to turn down food 
[x] feeling good about myself 

APPEARANCE -
[x] I am shorter than 5’4. 
[x] I think I’m ugly sometimes. 
[x] I have many scars. 
[] I tan easily. 
[] I wish my hair was a different color. 
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. 
[] I have a tattoo. 
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance. 
[getting them off around December FUCK YEAH!] I have/had braces. 
[x] I wear glasses. 
[] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. 
[] I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger. 
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears. 
[x] I have freckles. 

FAMILY -
[only behind their backs, never directly] I’ve sworn at my parents. 
[] I’ve run away from home. 
[] I’ve been kicked out of the house. 
[x] My biological parents are together. 
[] I have a sibling less than one year old. 
[kind of…] I want to have kids someday. 
[] I’ve had children. 
[] I’ve lost a child.  

RELATIONSHIPS -
[x] I’m single 
[] I’m in a relationship. 
[] I’m engaged. 
[] I’m married. 
[] I’ve gone on a blind date. 
[] I’ve been the dumpee more than the dumper. 
[] I miss someone right now. 
[x] I have a fear of abandonment. 
[] I’ve cheated in a relationship. 
[] I’ve gotten divorced 
[x] I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back. 
[] I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t. 
[] I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did. 
[] I’ve kept something from a past relationship. 

SEXUALITY -
[x] I’ve had a crush on someone of the same sex. 
[] I’ve had a crush on a teacher. 
[x] I am a cuddler. 
[] I’ve been kissed in the rain. 
[] I’ve hugged a stranger. 
[] I have kissed a stranger. 


BAD TIMES -
[x] I’ve consumed alcohol. 
[] I regularly drink. 
[] I can’t swallow pills. 
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem 
[] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point. 
[x] I shut others out when I’m upset. . 
[] I’m anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS. 
[] I’ve slept an entire day when I didn’t need it. 
[x] I’ve hurt myself on purpose. 
[] I’m addicted to self harm. 
[x] I’ve woken up crying 
[x] I’ve lost weight 
[x] I’ve gained weight 
[x] My weight holds me back 
[x] Weight consumes me. 
[] I’m at my thinnest 
[] I’m at my biggest 
[] I’ve lost weight and kept it off 
[x] I’ve lost weight but gained it back 
[x] My weight affects my mood 
[] I weigh myself daily 
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me 
[yeah, i guess] I thrive on compliments 
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size 
[a bit, kind of] I feel happy when I’m hungry 
[x] I get depressed after I eat 
[x] I’ve skipped a meal 
[x] I’ve thrown food away 
[x] I’ve spit food out 
[x] I’ve fasted 
[] I’ve taken diet pills 
[] I’ve used laxatives 
[] I’ve purged 
[x]  I exercise

[x] I exercise so I can eat 
[used to] I work out secretly 
[] I work out daily 
[x] I exercise to counteract eating 
[] I’ve fainted from exhaustion 

I’VE DONE -  
[] Weed 
[] Cigarettes 
[x] Alcohol 
[] Diet pills 
[] Pain killers 
[] Anti-depressants 
[] Ecstasy 
[] LSD 
[] Mushrooms 
[] Speed 
[] Cocaine 
[] Other 
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret 
[x] I have a diet blog 
[x] I look at thinspo 
[] I collect thinspo 
[x] I’m doing this for me 
[x] I’m doing this for someone 
[x] I’m doing this to prove myself